. What is really upsetting to me is neither of them seem to notice what this constant arguing is doing to me. I am sure there are those of you that would say I should find new friends, but it is not that easy for me to just give up on people I love even when they are being jerks. I feel like they could care less if they work my anxiety up as long as they can hit each other with mud made from words.I have been very upset lately some cause of things in my real world some cause of things on the net some cause of my own short comings, but no matter what the cause this summer has not been a good one even though we have had many sunny days. I should get out and enjoy them but i am scared of having a panic attack. Lately tv and the net have been my world. I have been worried about a friend of mine who has diabetes and it is not stable. I just wish my friends could see what the way they act is doing to me and actually care.
I have a friend in my real world that cares, but she has been really busy lately and I would never try to take time away from her family. Family is important spend as much time with them as you can while you can. Yea I know this blog kinda jumps around, but that is what my thoughts are doing tonight sorry.
